Saturday, April 9, 2011

Changing the Latitude of my Attitude

Historically, I do not play well with others.  Really. I am not a morning person and I like to do things my own way. This attitude was not transferring well to my runs.  Something needed to change or I was going to break.
I decided to be proactive and change my outlook on running. Six months ago if you were to ask me why I was going to run the 25k my response would of been simple.
“To prove I can.”
That was the first problem. Who was I trying to prove it to? This mindset made running work. It made getting up at 6am for 7:30am runs seem like the stupidest idea ever. It made speed work even worse. I decided to change that. I NEEDED for this to be fun again. Small shifts made big changes. I am faster. I am smiling. I WANT to RUN. Most of all if you ask me now why I want to run 25k my answer is.
“Because I can.”
So what did I do? I just started to look at things from a new perspective. A few examples:
  • Eat to run, don’t run to eat. I was still living in weight loss nutrition mode, not long distance. When your body is starving, you hate the world.
  • Morning runs are better than a triple espresso to start your day.
  • When it gets tough, I smile. Why not? I am sure it could be worse.
  • I turned speedwork into a game. A little race against myself.
  • I was very very very picky about my new shoes and now I run pain free.
  • I respect the distance fully. I enjoy the rush of the start, the speed of the middle miles and the struggle for the finish. I can cover the distance so why not embrace the challenge.
  • I am no longer bummed that I am not as fast as other people. I have seen so much improvement in myself that every run is a learning experience now. I will get there and someday I may just pass them. I can dream right?
  • I take gummy bears on long runs along with my GU. The irony of someone who has lost almost 200 pounds running down the street eating gummy bears make me laugh. They are a funny little fuel .
  • I promised myself to run once a week without music. It has made me lighter on my feet and the rhythm of my breathing has evened out.
These are just a few things that have lightened the mental load of training for me and made running fun again.  I said when I started running that if it ever stopped being fun I was done. It just took a little time for me to realize it was up to ME to make it fun again. So I say find what makes it fun for you, smile and eat some gummy bears. We are almost there :)


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