Are we competing?

'Cause if we are no one told me! At my gym they run an annual Biggest Loser Contest with teams from local business'. I honestly dread this time of year. The place gets packed and everyone is walking around like they are better than everyone else because they have been dieting and working out for 3-4 whole weeks. Displaying the "ugly" personalities in full force. There is this one girl in particular that I really feel needs a good ass kicking. She is roughly 19 years old...maybe 20. She first caught my attention because she "mock jogs" on the treadmill. It is like a walk and a jog combined. Good for her I first thought! She has a good deal of weight to lose but hell don't we all. Then I noticed day after day she was only getting on the treadmill and not interested in anything else. Again, I thought whatever works...until she butted into a conversation I was having with another gym member. 120 pound loss is obviously a lot to lose and I get asked about it frequently now. It was during one of these conversations that she chimed in about how it seemed like a fast loss and rolled her eyes at me. C'mon..we are NOT children here and I have not been in high school for a very long time. Well now this girl seems to want to try to keep up with or out do me on everything. If it wasn't for the snide looks and eye rolling I would probably take this as a compliment, like she was trying to emulate my weight loss by following my every footstep. I don't really know what her problem is but I can only assume that the attitude she has is going to hinder her journey. Why do we feel the need to compete with eachother all of the time? This is my life and my time and I am here to live it they I want not the way someone else has. The challenge is over in about 4 weeks, I think...my gym will be empty again except for probably a 10% retention rate from the contest. I hate the first of the year, UGH!

Yummo

Potato and Canadian Bacon Slow Cooker Chowder soups POINTS® Value: 3 Servings: 6 Preparation Time: 25 min Cooking Time: 360 min Level of Difficulty: Easy Works with Simply Filling This rich, chunky chowder is extremely satisfying. Lean Canadian bacon gives it great flavor without much fat. Ingredients 2 cup(s) potato(es), cut into 1/2-inch cubes 1 large carrot(s), diced 1 cup(s) leek(s), chopped, white part only 1 medium garlic clove(s), minced 4 cup(s) fat-free chicken broth 1/2 cup(s) uncooked barley 1 piece(s) bay leaf 1/4 tsp dried thyme, crushed 1/4 tsp black pepper 4 oz Canadian-style bacon, cut into 1/4-inch pieces 1/2 cup(s) fat-free evaporated milk 2 oz fat-free half-and-half Instructions In a slow cooker, combine potatoes, carrots, leek, garlic, broth, barley, bay leaf, thyme, pepper and bacon; cover and cook on low for 6 hours. Stir in evaporated milk and half-and-half; heat through, uncovered, about 10 minutes. Yields about 1 2/3 cups per serving

Damn Scale!

After a grueling week and a whole ass load of non scale victories the scale only moved 1 pound..1 freaking pound. I love how everyone says " oh it is a simple math equation..blah blah blah. Well guess what? I do that math every freakin' day and I maintain about a 1000 calorie deficit which should equal a 2 pound loss and I have by no means been averaging that. My patience is running thin with this. I got my Wii fit today so that will get me off my bum at night and I already work out 5-6 days a week at the gym so I guess I will just change things up a bit and see if that works..Ahh, I just want to scream and yell and cry and eat. I will probably do all but the latter. I know a loss is a loss but c'mon body..work with me here.

Well that's just Wii Fitastic!

Can you guess what I just bought by the title of the blog post. Oh yes..a Wii Fit! I spend and hour a day at the gym and I guess I need more exercise. Not really, late night boredom sends me shopping online. It is a good thing I don't stay up late enough to be sucked into infomercials or I would be in my kitchen wearing a snugglie and using my magic bullet blender instead of typing. I had a victory at the gym today, between the elliptical and the treadmill I ran 3 miles in 40 minutes. I wish I could do all of it on the treadmill but my new shoes haven't arrived yet. I need special one's because I have retarded feet. I overpronate..just like me, I always over do everything. Appropriatly enough the shoes should be mine along with the Wii Fit around Fat Tuesday. Hmm, I guess I was planning well or the diet gods finally decided to cut me a break. Tip of the day: Do not wear a tight shirt to the gym when you have a size D chest...old mean flock to you like seagulls to fast food. Old Pervie Men..ewwww!

Sorry Kids..no dinner tonight!

That's right I decided I am just not going to feed them..well not really. Every night I make this wonderful dinner that anyone would be proud to sit down and eat. Tonight I am tired. The spin bike at the gym left me in pain and frustrated. I peeked my head into the spin room and there sat 3 generations of skinny bitch. The youngest was in the lead and "teaching" the other two. I immediately picked a bike (if you can call those torture devices that) in the corner and started making adjustments. Lower the seat..move it forward..lower the handlebars..is everyone at this gym 6 foot tall. OK I am ready to go. Oh yeah now that my legs are spinning out of control I should reach down and adjust the clips..woo, and I was off. I was on the spin bike for only 15 minutes. I alternated between standing and sitting. Sitting is fine but even at the closest setting the bars are too far away for me and then standing feels good but even the seat at the lowest setting is getting a little too intimate with my ass. If springtime would hurry up I could just get on a real bike and end my misery. You know the only reason I even do this to myself is because my darling husband called me elliptical obsessed. He thinks I am having an affair with the Reebok cross trainer. I needed to prove to him that I love all of the equipment equally. So after my ever so graceful spin session I completed my weight training circuit and I was outta there. Now I sit here and type and am spent. I have ate oatmeal, chili, baked potato, dried cranberries and of course a kashi bar. No gourmet tonight kiddies...tonight we will feast on cold cut sandwiches and watermelon. So crucify me.

What about that crazy blog name?

Sounds mean doesn't it? Really it is just fact. I am not relating to physical beauty but people that are truly just mean and ugly, their personalities are just ugly. I see this every day at the gym, around town and even on tv. There are these beautiful thin women who are just bitches. I am not singling them out just stating fact that they are not perfect either. No one is so as much as we try to work out and lose weight my title reminds me to be a better person..not just physically but be a better human in general.

Broccoli-Cheese Soup

Now POINTS® Value: 4 Servings: 4 Preparation Time: 14 min Cooking Time: 10 min Level of Difficulty: Easy

Our cheesy broccoli soup is so creamy and delicious you'll never believe it's light.

Ingredients

	2 tsp olive oil
	1/2 cup(s) onion(s), minced
	16 oz frozen chopped broccoli
	29 oz canned chicken broth
	4 oz Kraft Velveeta Light Reduced-Fat Pasteurized Processed Cheese Product, cut into cubes, or similar product
	1/2 cup(s) fat-free skim milk
	1/2 tsp garlic powder
	1/2 cup(s) water
	1/4 cup(s) cornstarch

Instructions

• Heat oil in a large saucepan over medium-high heat. Add onion and cook 3 minutes, until soft. Add broccoli and broth and bring to a boil; reduce heat to medium and simmer 3 minutes, until broccoli is tender.
  
  
• Reduce heat to low, add cheese and stir until cheese melts; stir in milk and garlic powder.
  
  
• Whisk together water and cornstarch. Add mixture to pan and simmer 2 minutes, until thick. Serve hot. Yields about 1 1/2 cups per serving.

So close..yet so far

It has been a long 4 weeks since my last update. I have been at the gym regularly and am finally getting a chance to really run. I am still a little scared to blow out my knee that the doctor fixed long ago but all seems well so far. I lost 7 pounds this past month, not the 10 I was hoping for but I knew the loss would slow as I got closer to my goal.
I have decided to do the Freemont Triathlon on August 8th as my first one and Jeramy bought me a new Trek road bike to help the cause. Of course he bought himself one too..I guess all that overtime is good for something. So as the day approaches I will keep updating. I keep pushing myself physically more than I ever have before and I have come to realize that if I can get to a place where I could inspire I would really like to help others on there journey. I am not sure where this will take me but I know there isn't any turning back.

My favorite quote this month comes from the biggest loser:
"Suck it up cupcake, you aren't the only fat girl in the room"